“For it will not be you speaking, but the Spirit of your Father speaking through you. Brother will betray brother to death, and a father his child; children will rise against their parents and have them put to death. You will be hated by everyone on account of My name, but the one who perseveres to the end will be saved.”
(Matthew 10: 20-22)
Before the first snowy morning dawn approached…a heartbroken prayer was gently and softly spoken…
“Do not forsake me Lord, for I have warned others of the continuous works of evildoers….yet I fear I have lost the battle…”
And this battle waged was not fought on torrent enemy grounds…but in safe and familiar sanctuaries …..
By quite familiar and desperately loved faces.
Much adored ones but now turned foes…..Always embraced will be my present day adversaries…
From the relaxed and easy surroundings of my past.
… They thought nothing to speak ill of me…
Their evil and vile language so unspeakable….so completely incomprehensible….
“I’m on my knees before You…..
“Where must I go from here Lord…
Do I concede to my once loved adversaries… or do I carry on without them?”
This is where this hard fought battle has found me….
Among an open void filled with thorns and spikes
A mighty wasteland it has now become, once vibrant and beaming with color.
I’m even more desperate to advance among the corn fields and forest You gave me…
With the loving prince you once hand-picked.
A ferocious warrior indeed who rescued this hurting daughter from afar…
And will always kept her safe and warm within.
I long to proceed to the winding and peaceful paths which clearly scream your Name,
And abruptly awaken me from sleep….
…And bring me back to life once again.
Surely a hidden and heavenly blessing I have yet to fully realize…
For the poison also inhabits Your wondrous beauty which equally sustain us both .
“For son treats father contemptuously, daughter rises up against her mother, daughter in law against her mother in law; a man’s enemies are the men of his own household.”
“Sustain me Lord, please hear my plea this cold and bitter morning….
For my perseverance is severely lacking,
Please help me complete this long and hard life’s journey.”
Allow us both now to seek refuge in the forest you have given us…
For our twilight years are fast approaching.
And the hard labor of years behind us… are scoffed and ridiculed…
they remain unnoticed…
By those who do not know You……..