Rain…..Fall On Me!

“So that you may be sons of your Father who is in heaven. For he makes his sun rise on the evil and on the good, and sends rain on the just and on the unjust.”



Summer Rain


This night is so very lonely…its never-ending fears begin to torment me….

The nightly doom sets in early on this very dark mid- night.

Wreaking havoc on my faith….

My soul…..

And my ever- present being….

My Lord…. And My Savior!

 “Hear my plea”…

“I will follow you…. Even if I walk all alone,”

“Till the break of day.”

This early daylight begins without a whispering sound….

The day’s morning sun is bright and blinding to my weary, sleepless eyes.

The low-lying and lingering ominous clouds seem to overshadow any lasting hope of this sunrise.

And yet… there You are…



 In the distance…

Like a candlelight ready to quickly extinguish ….

On this early morning daybreak…

My Lord…. And My Savior!…

 “Hear my plea”…

“I will follow you…. Even if I walk all alone,”

“Till the brink of night…..”



The seasons seem to change so quickly now….my breath is growing more swallow….

My body is diseased and weakened….by the years of my rebellious youth,

I so fear my own impending death…..

As I reach blindly into the aged darkness that surrounds me…

 Reaching only to grab hold of Your rod…

 And Your staff…

Yet I think I grab hold to…

 a bruised and nail-pierced Hand……

My Lord…. And My Savior!…

 “Hear my plea”…

“I will follow you…. Even if I walk all alone,”

“Till the verge of death…..”


I return as dust to the darkness I once called home….

Lying deep within the frozen ground

 Which once inhabited me.

And in this cold darkness…

I hear the distant sound of a magnificent horn.

I rise and look into this vast darkness….

And search desperately with weary, sleepless eyes

 Where Your constant light once flickered…..

My eyes grow clearer……

My vision as crisp as it once was…….

Am I awakening to a room in my Father’s house?

I scream out in utter fear……

Yet it is not my own shattering voice I hear…..

I hear another voice….

Speaking slowly,


Is He welcoming me?……

“This is YOUR room in my Father’s house!!”

Though I do not deserve this upcoming wedding feast!….

I walk in,

 with my head held high!

Invited by the One who called me! 

My Lord…. And My Savior!…

 “Hear my plea”…

“I will follow you…. Even if I walk all alone,”

“Till the marriage supper of the Lamb.”



fall heavy on me in this present darkness…

For I fear no evil!


Silence is not Golden…Anymore!


“Nebuchadnezzar answered and said, “ Blessed be the God of Shadrach, Meshach and Abed-nego, who has sent His angel and delivered His servants who trusted in Him, and set aside the king’s command, and yielded up their bodies rather than serve and worship any god accept their own God.”

(Daniel 3:28 ESV)

SILENCE IS NOT GOLDEN……At least not anymore….

 We are living and just barely surviving within a fading and dying world… where sin is now celebrated …you now must embrace sin …the constant and relentless demand is now upon us to celebrate sin….or face your own disastrous ruin …your livelihood is now being held captive…unless you give in to the demands of those who blindly control the dying ways of this world…all while the wicked and evil One rejoices happily in this cunning and wicked contempt….for even the very blind do not see the whole Truth…. The Only Truth that would set them free from their own evil prisons…and from all their wicked vices, so they deny their own sins….. Hence….

They deny the Only Savior….

They remain trapped and dying….suffocating in their pure arrogance and pride…

“We have successfully made the practice of sinning now appealing”….

“So…now we demand that the eternal life- gift holders, the now disgusting and filthy self-professed sinners to”…..

Deny your church!…

Deny your leaders!….

Deny your God!…



OR face ruin if you do not ….FOR we will destroy your God….

“WE are now destroying your God”…

We will also destroy you and your church… from the inside out….


We will turn your Light into darkness…we will destroy you…piece by minuscule and pain-staking pitiful piece…

Your adversary prowls around like a roaring lion… always seeking someone to devour…

AND we will devour you…if you do not submit to our evil ways….

For we disguise ourselves very successfully…even as an angel of light…

We accomplish this by categorizing you as evil…..corrupt…nefarious….an abomination of your very own God!!!….we will label you… We will willingly use your own sins against you…for your own sins are very plentiful! and the evil one makes us well aware!!! …..

WE expect you to remain “Christ-like”…

Isn’t that your only defense?

  we will use that to annihilate you!….

For we want to utterly destroy you…..

WE will manipulate you with the very Words of your own God!…

For the prince of the power of the air knows your Scripture very well… 

Even better than you!

Do not be fooled….

 And we will use our wicked, non-stop name-calling…

And this dying world will begin to believe us….

Because the world believes in us now….

They hold us in high esteem and our UN-forgiven celebratory sins…..

They now celebrate us….They even march in the streets to defend us….

Even if you choose to remain silent….

“This is exactly where we want you”….


Because silence is NOT golden anymore….


We want you to deny your God…

Your silence is not an option….

For our god deceived Eve by his cunning,

We know your thoughts will be led astray from a sincere and pure devotion to Christ!!….

  “Deny the Words of your Creator… Deny your Christ right now”…..

 Or we will now destroy you…..

For the day is coming……it is coming quickly!!!!

We control the airways…we control the mass media… we control and encompass the entire world…

“The whole world now lies in the power of the evil one!!!”!

Preface…Debunking Anti-Christ Rhetoric

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It’s everywhere…growing and flourishing in the very landscape of a growing post Christian Americana. If I am haphazardly becoming victim to its sinister message, surely others are too.  And what about our children?  It is upsetting, disheartening, it is filled with pure evil and ill intent.  I have wrestled with this for many months.  Should I attempt to debunk this anti-Christ rhetoric that seems to be prospering everywhere?  I am not a theologian or scholar.  So where are they?…  The modern day theologians, scholars, and apologists?… The great astute and intellectual minds who can easily give explanation to this new and growing mystery? Or can they?  Perhaps their silence on this subject should be of great concern. It is certainly difficult to view. What is really fueling this growing hatred of Christ? 


Coupled with the rise of anti-Christ rhetoric is the ever growing effort to shame, belittle, and label those for what they believe.  And for who they believe in! They silence their voices by bullying them into submission of their own disbelief.  There are now no debates in this new secular world of no truth. Absolutely no agreeing to disagree.  They demand tolerance yet have none..  The faithful have become the new minority…but without protective provisions afforded everyone else.  These millions of the majority have succumbed to their tactics….  They degrade them, they deface them…one by one. They slowly silence their beliefs….. Quite easily bullied into submission it appears….frightened and terrified of reprisal.



The ranks of martyrs are growing….in the East…and in the West, it is only a matter of time.  The quiet and discreet mention of genocide and then heard of no more.  The real and brutal enemies of religious freedom constantly planning calculated attacks and growing larger in number…Their weaponry of force are the written words of a deranged one who slaughtered many others.. And even some faithful fall victim to this incredible deceit.  And Americana is busy and distracted opening old wounds!  Fighting old wars of past generations.  Demanding payment… seeking lawlessness and disorder Casting away moral values and absolute truth. They make heroes out of villains…Their young so easily offended by mere words…Their old are withdrawn and discouraged by the new.  A perfect storm for the enemy to invade. A nation already in turmoil… a lost and struggling generation fighting from within…..


There seems to be a perfect storm brewing on the horizon…


On this diminishing Western Americana…..

Chasing Rainbows


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“ I have set my rainbow in the clouds, and it will be the sign of the covenant between Me and the earth.”

( Genesis 9 : 13 NIV )

I was struggling with a lot of frustration.  It has been growing secretly for some time…festering slowly and manipulating my daily thoughts and emotions for many weeks, perhaps months or more .  My discouragement was beginning to hold me hostage…demanding a ransom…or at the very least, demanding a response…..Instead of responding,  I took quiet comfort in convincing myself I was not alone. There must be more like me hiding somewhere in the secret and safe places of humanity…. Wondering in silent amazement and continually asking themselves…just as I am,   “what is happening to society?”  “What is happening to the morals and values we once held so dear?”….But I was currently feeling completely defeated by the impending bleak outcome of this sudden downward shift….for it has plummeted so very far.  


As a child of divorce I understand firsthand the breakdown of a marriage and how it shatters a once intact nuclear family forever…A jilted ex- spouse left picking up the bitter pieces of betrayal and heartache….The innocent children left dealing with issues of abandonment and rejection…The starving daughter void of a fathers’ unconditional love and the ensuing and stagnant poverty of only a mothers wage.  The statistics are grim….even years ago….although I did not choose to be a statistic, I simply was for there is no denying the long lasting negative impacts of a divorce.  It is very well documented on the entire family, on everyone involved…and on our society.  


It used to begin without much fanfare…at least in the days of yesteryears.  There were societal ills even back then, such as my parents divorce…actually ever since the fall of mankind…with evil always trying to prevail.  Our hearts a constant battleground of evil versus good but there were topics not widely spoken of….Immorality was hidden from view….No public boasting of wrongdoings….A silent code of sorts that some today may argue as unhealthy but this silence seemed to stem from an inner self awareness of basic wrong versus right and a universal acknowledgement of evil versus good…A fundamental societal moral code of which we used to easily recognize but no longer possess the ability to do so. 

This moral code is greatly declining.   It is dissolving upon the stage of which is now viewed live by millions at one time.  The deception so very great…but the recognition of this deception so very small. 

“Woe to them who call evil good and good evil.” (Isaiah 5 :20 )….The line between the two now almost obsolete.  So many unable to see this grave mark of distinction simply because there are far fewer who do not Fear Him and/or far fewer who do not Love Him…It is as simple as this blatant fact for His timeless Word is displaying so brilliantly…so vividly….all without error….and I am able to recognize this…

yet I am so discouraged….

My frustration and discouragement began to peak and overflow last week as I prepared for our weekly visit to our woods in the country. It quickly culminated into a profound state of fear. I always choose love over fear just because I do love Him so very much …yet on this day… my fear of God was suffocating and leaving me breathless.  The end is well-written for all to read… but it is yet to be lived… good will prevail in the end….but the evil which exists currently is breathtaking….stunningly mesmerizing….and deceiving multitudes who deny its existence.  It will eventually engulf those who do not recognize it leaving no one standing in its wake of destruction….

But why do I still clearly see?

As we headed south to our country place of refuge there appeared a magnificent rainbow…fully intact…its range of color so vibrant, and so vivid in detail .  Stretching across His vastly enormous and endless sky and dissolving effortlessly into the horizon…as He gently and lovingly reminded me…yet once again of His promise.   A colorful symbol created only by Him.   Historically grounded in the biblical narrative yet at times stolen by a wayward humanity and used for another purpose.  The same humanity which now increasingly denies the role of sinner…and the desperate need for a Savior….and so… the statistics remain grim.  And our current state of upheaval and denial will only continue to  grow more bleak….more discouraging.   Yet He infuses me with hope when I am hopeless.  And I am once again brought to my knees in complete surrender…….and in complete submission to Him.. reduced into uttering one simple but profound phrase…

“Thy will be done.”

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Pain and Suffering III

“And this is the judgment: the light has come into the world, and people loved the darkness rather than the light because their works were evil.”

(John 3: 19 ESV)

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There is darkness in this world and the growing darkness is all penetrating…consuming…deepening…. and slowly engulfing us all…peering through every media outlet…lurking on the corners of every street….inviting itself into any venue…..and the innocent bloodshed…the crying and screaming of victims brutally being quickly silenced and trapped within its wicked death grip…and this evil is escalating as we are turning away from the light….it is pure hatred in the very face of simple innocence…and it is bred from blatant pride…it demands its own way without regard for anyone or anything….it is slowly destroying us from inside out…and it is blinding so many multitudes with its alluring ugliness…We would rather choose the darkness over the light….

“I’ve been an atheist since I was nine years old.  And my mom is really religious, so we have a strange relationship.  But if my mother was right, what would be the reason that the gods could let anything bad happen in the world?”

–Tarsem Singh

Many unbelievers continue to argue if Jesus is the light of the world, why did He not stop pain and suffering?  But if truth is spoken and we are honest with ourselves and with each other…..most of our own pain and suffering…. this ugly evil which exists in the world… comes from deep within us….buried within the soul of a fallen humanity….it is instinctual….it is innate…a compulsion to continually seek darkness in this current state of fallenness….it lurks and peers out of the evil which exists within the hearts of every man….We intuitively choose the darkness over the light…

 “I am an atheist.  I was born a Catholic, but after I had traveled to Northern Ireland with some Catholic friends, and we had a horrible experience with the English Protestant police, I lost all taste for formal religion.”

–Guy Laliberte

Jesus did not come to Earth the first time to bring justice….but rather to bear it…

Jesus did not come with a sword in Hand…but with nails driven through both Hands…

The Son of God entered into a fallen humanity…to eventually end a fallen humanity

The Son of God entered into human suffering…to eventually end human suffering….

If Christ had come with a sword…He would have destroyed all of us…

But when He returns that second time…there will be left remaining… those who are spared!

His own Suffering…His brutal Death… and His glorious Resurrection created a people in the world who will be spared!

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“Always after a defeat and a respite, the shadow (evil) takes another shape and grows again.”

–J. R. R. Tolkien

…Have you lost hope in the growing darkness of a fallen humanity?


Orlando Massacre!

My heart just bleeds and breaks for those precious lives lost in Orlando!!!!!!  I am totally speechless!!!!!  I am in mourning for those beautiful lives lost!!!!!  Absolutely NO respect for human life!!!    A fallen humanity…. And a completely godless society!!!

 JESUS……please…please…Come soon….I BEG YOU!!!!!

Please forgive me…. Jesus….Please forgive me….please forgive us ALL!!!!

Take me home Jesus!!! Please take me home….After almost 40 years….I can bear this hatred No MORE!!!!

Quran (2:191-193) – “And kill them wherever you find them, and turn them out from where they have turned you out. And Al-Fitnah [disbelief or unrest] is worse than killing… “


Quran (2:244) – “Then fight in the cause of Allah, and know that Allah Heareth and knoweth all things.” 


Quran (3:56) – “As to those who reject faith, I will punish them with terrible agony in this world and in the Hereafter, nor will they have anyone to help.”


Quran (3:151) – “Soon shall we cast terror into the hearts of the Unbelievers, for that they joined companions with Allah, for which He had sent no authority”. 

Quran (4:74) – “Let those fight in the way of Allah who sell the life of this world for the other. Whoso fighteth in the way of Allah, be he slain or be he victorious, on him we shall bestow a vast reward.” 

Quran (4:76) – “Those who believe fight in the cause of Allah…”

Quran (4:89) – “They but wish that ye should reject Faith, as they do, and thus be on the same footing (as they): But take not friends from their ranks until they flee in the way of Allah (From what is forbidden). But if they turn renegades, seize them and slay them wherever ye find them; and (in any case) take no friends or helpers from their ranks.”

Quran (4:95) – “Not equal are those of the believers who sit (at home), except those who are disabled (by injury or are blind or lame, etc.), and those who strive hard and fight in the Cause of Allah with their wealth and their lives. Allah has preferred in grades those who strive hard and fight with their wealth and their lives above those who sit (at home).Unto each, Allah has promised good (Paradise), but Allah has preferred those who strive hard and fight, above those who sit (at home) by a huge reward. ” 

Quran (4:104) – “And be not weak hearted in pursuit of the enemy; if you suffer pain, then surely they (too) suffer pain as you suffer pain…” 

Quran (5:33) – “The punishment of those who wage war against Allah and His messenger and strive to make mischief in the land is only this, that they should be murdered or crucified or their hands and their feet should be cut off on opposite sides or they should be imprisoned; this shall be as a disgrace for them in this world, and in the hereafter they shall have a grievous chastisement.”

Quran (8:12) – “I will cast terror into the hearts of those who disbelieve. Therefore strike off their heads and strike off every fingertip of them.” 

Quran (8:15) – “O ye who believe! When ye meet those who disbelieve in battle, turn not your backs to them. (16)Whoso on that day turneth his back to them, unless maneuvering for battle or intent to join a company, he truly hath incurred wrath from Allah, and his habitation will be hell, a hapless journey’s end.”  



Psalm 11:5 ESV    “The Lord tests the righteous, but his soul hates the wicked and the one who loves violence.”


Matthew 26:52-54 ESV  “Then Jesus said to him, “Put your sword back into its place. For all who take the sword will perish by the sword. Do you think that I cannot appeal to my Father, and he will at once send me more than twelve legions of angels? But how then should the Scriptures be fulfilled, that it must be so?”


Isaiah 60:18 ESV   “Violence shall no more be heard in your land, devastation or destruction within your borders; you shall call your walls Salvation, and your gates Praise.”


Matthew 5:38-39 ESV     “You have heard that it was said, ‘An eye for an eye and a tooth for a tooth.’ But I say to you, Do not resist the one who is evil. But if anyone slaps you on the right cheek, turn to him the other also.”


Proverbs 3:31 ESV   “Do not envy a man of violence and do not choose any of his ways.”


Hebrews 10:30 ESV “For we know him who said, “Vengeance is mine; I will repay.” And again, “The Lord will judge his people.”


Romans 13:4      “For he is God’s servant for your good. But if you do wrong, be afraid, for he does not bear the sword in vain. For he is the servant of God, an avenger who carries out God’s wrath on the wrongdoer.”


Romans 14:1 ESV   “As for the one who is weak in faith, welcome him, but not to quarrel over opinions.”


Genesis 9:5-6 ESV   “And for your lifeblood I will require a reckoning: from every beast I will require it and from man. From his fellow man I will require a reckoning for the life of man. “Whoever sheds the blood of man, by man shall his blood be shed, for God made man in his own image.”


1 Timothy 3:3 ESV   “Not a drunkard, not violent but gentle, not quarrelsome, not a lover of money.


Titus 3:2 ESV       “To speak evil of no one, to avoid quarreling, to be gentle, and to show perfect courtesy toward all people.”


Psalm 55:15 ESV   “Let death steal over them; let them go down to Sheol alive; for evil is in their dwelling place and in their heart.”


Matthew 7:1-2 ESV   “Judge not, that you be not judged.”


“A new command I give you, Love one another as I have loved you so you must
love one another…”


“So not let your hearts be troubled.  Trust in God, trust also in me.”



“But I say to you…Love your enemies and pray for those who persecute you, so that you may be sons of your Father who is in heaven…”






Jesus ….I am ready to come home!!!!






Pain and Suffering I

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“I have said these things to you, that in me you may have peace.  In this world you will have tribulation.  But take heart; I have overcome the world.”

–Jesus Christ

 (John 16: 33 ESV)

“Even if you were aware of children and felt compassion, when you have your own, it multiplies.  It breaks your heart to know that there are so many children in the world suffering so much.”

–Penelope Cruz

I have heard many people say they do not understand…they simply cannot even comprehend… why a loving God would allow so much suffering and pain in this world…so because of this seemingly perplexing inconsistency, many simply choose not to believe in God.   They conclude there can be no God existing in a world which experiences so much gut-wrenching pain and catastrophic suffering. Suffering is unavoidable.  Suffering does not discriminate…pain and suffering will eventually come to one and all.   Suffering seems to destroy everything in its path… it actually renders the sufferer unable to simply carry on with the very essential basics of life….it destroys….shatters…. overwhelms….it quickly takes life as we know it completely away……it can rob us of life itself….

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“Why Do people hate God?  One, they hate the moral standard.  Two, they hate the way He’s transforming the world even in the midst of suffering and tragedy.”

–Kirk Cameron

Different cultures and religions have attempted to define suffering.  In fact, one way a culture serves its members is to attempt to define ways in which to face horrific pain and suffering.  Some cultures and religions teach pain and suffering stem from the failure of people to live rightly.  The doctrine of karma is an example of this.  Buddhism teaches that suffering comes not from past deeds but from unfulfilled desires and those actual desires are the result of the illusion that we are individual selves.  Some societies address suffering and pain with a high view of fate and destiny.  Circumstances in life are predicted by supernatural forces…as in Islam…the will of Allah.   Other cultures teach suffering is a battle between darkness and light.  Our own contemporary secular Western culture is greatly lacking when it comes to explaining why pain and suffering occurs.  Many Western people of today find the ultimate goal of life is happiness…and suffering prevents happiness from occurring…During the Enlightenment Period, there was a shift from the belief that people were created to serve God to the belief that God made the world for our benefit.  Our ancestors once believed suffering was a part of life…but today we find a world where the belief is that God is obligated to arrange things the way we would like them to be…..When suffering and pain is seen as senseless…victims and cultures of its destruction develop deep anger…and deep hatred…and this growing anger and hatred is known as ressentiment…..

“As I lay so sick on my bed, from Christmas till March, I was always praying for poor ole master.  Pears like i didn’t do nothing but pray for poor ole master.  Oh, Lord, convert ole master, Oh, dear Lord, change dat man’s  heart, and make him a Christian.”

–Harriet Tubman

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“I find the greatest songs in the world come out of pain, and I don’t like it!  Here’s what it does: its strips away all of your facade.  It makes you so honest.  It’s cleansing.”

–Lionel Richie 

Thus…pain and suffering has now become the single and strongest objection to the existence of God…..Why would a loving God allow pain and suffering in this world?

 Christianity differs from all other worldviews…..


  Because we have a God who Himself suffered and didn’t deserve the pain and suffering inflicted upon Him…..and the most difficult aspect of this to understand….to even begin to comprehend…..

God actually allowed this pain and suffering to happen…..

And what if ( just what if ) our acute awareness of pain and suffering is actually a clue that God does exist?

“Jesus wept.”

(John 11: 35 ESV)

To be continued…